push off… hold on.

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Wow, so it’s been over a month since i’ve written. As you know a lot in this space and time has happened to me. It’s probably been the biggest part of the roller coaster yet. I will not be able to tell you all the stories clearly as some days I have been unconscious, some hallucinating, but now more sleeping. My American bone marrow donor cells have definitely taken their toll on me. My hands are like constant pins and needles, my skin looks and feels like marzipan. Hmm, don’t know if that’s a good simile. Meh.

So since being out, I have been able to go to church and far out, I can’t believe how good it is. I swear every message Ps. Phil Pringle has spoken has touched me right on the inside. I wanted to share a bit of that with you, in hope to plant hope in the circumstance of whatever you are going through.

Romans 15:13

13May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.”

Everyday we go from despair to hope, hope to despair, backwards and forwards. For me, I can go to  this headspace of “I look like an alien, I have no energy, I don’t want to be seen in public, I don’t have any hope for a future because I can’t even decide a career choice.” I used to love working with children, nannying, and teaching but because I am no “immuno-suppressed” I have to be so careful with bugs and germs I let my body around. So here I am stuck in despair.

But no.

As Ps. Phil preaches and as it says in Romans, God is a God of positive pictures. Expectation is apart of this positivity. It’s about the ability to receive. How much are we carrying around? He arranges our circumstances when we are ready with expectation. I love what it says in

Hebrews 10:23

3Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful.

Amongst all this mess, we mustn’t forget that God is faithful. Just go with it and ask God to take you with Him. Remember that if you have given your heart to God, you’ve given Him permission to take you with Him wherever he goes. Whether it be as big as Leukaemia or as small as changing jobs, he has promised hope to us.

The past is the past, the future is what we cling onto. Everyday we wake for the opportunity to spend with our God in heaven. Everything can be clear again. And the road isn’t always hard. There is patience. But patience builds character. I mean if I could rewind this year, take all the sickness, heartache everything back, I don’t know if I would. Of course I wish it would’ve been an easy step by step process. I wish I were bouncing out of bed every morning to the gym, to grab a coffee and down to the beach. There are so many things I want. But as Ps Phil pointed out that if there’s no patience, our trees never bear fruit. As we watch time, we watch the fulfillment of our dreams come to pass.

God’s timing is accurate. Keep drawing, designing, writing, creating, dreaming. Have a vision. Have a hope. And make sure lots of laughter is including in the whole package.

++ Inspiration from this blog was drawn from Ps. Phil Pringle’s messages Saturday Night 20 Sept, Sunday Night 21 Sept, Sunday Morning 27 Sept. Get DVDs from http://www.myc3church.net

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8 responses to “push off… hold on.

  1. Courtney king

    Wow sam! Amazing writing! I loved that message of hope too! I can’t even imagine what you have been through. Just so glad you have god to put your hope and trust into. Thinking of u often. Xxx

  2. Tammy

    Sam this is so what i needed to hear. its completely in season. i was just losing hope and this really helped me.

  3. Bronte Waller

    Sam, it’s great to hear from you. Love reading what you write. Wellsprings of life. Thank you.
    XXBronteXX

  4. Michele Cooke

    Hi Sam,
    You are such an inspiration for one so young yet so filled with knowledge and understanding of our
    Lord and His word and where you and we fit into His plan. Everytime I log onto twitter I pray for you and that is every day. Keep believing, praying, riding on. He knows the end outcome, it is in His plan.
    Michele Cooke
    Bible College Graduate of 1993 at CCC

  5. Hi Sam so good to see push off …hold on I was just hopeing there might be something from you God is so good .I know you will keep trusting we will keep praying and believing the promises we already have .with love to you ,emma ,jack and mam and dad XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

  6. Renee Klaric

    hey lovely sam, just wanted to let you know this is totally what i needed to hear. thankyou for bringing light to my situation. You have brought such a relevant and seasonal word to me. thanks i really appreciate it.
    much love, renee xx

  7. glynis howard

    hey sam…. patience …..yeah God is always finding challengeing ways to test our patience …..Hope is that solution His plans and purpose ..you have been sooooo patient and faithful to Him in this time I can only keep thinking of Job while you have been going through all this and then ‘ch 42 v12 The Lord blessed the latter part of Jobs life more than the first…’ we all love you so much and admire your courage xo

  8. Hi Sam.

    This week my brother was diagnosed with bowel and liver cancer. He is a father of two beautiful boys under 3 and husband to a wonderful wife.

    This week I have experienced the swing you speak of, between hope and despair.

    Thank you for reminding me that God is faithful, and to hold onto the hope he has placed inside our hearts, even in this dark, crappy time.

    I hope you have a beautiful day and that God continues to do amazing things in you. x

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